Doubt, it’s a strong word that in our deepest heart we all
deal with. Intermittently I doubt
self, divinity, my actions, my intent and those around me. It is quite a revelation when some one
who so loudly proclaims their beliefs to the world professes such a thing.
For a very long time I resisted my doubts, suspecting that
they pointed to something about myself that was a weakness. In my overconfidence I harbored a dark
corner of doubt that nagged at me, ever questioning my fundamental character.
My relationship with divinity eventually morphed how I
viewed these feelings and thoughts. With time, I came to understand the
strengths that were inherent in this aspect of my personality. My doubts lead
me to question, explore and apply reason to my inner self, my relationships and
divinity.
It is my doubts that have lead me to develop discernment,
compassion for others and a relationship with the Goddess that provides great
meaning in my life. Today I value
doubt as indispensible to my activities in social justice, personal growth and spiritual
development.
Those who claim to have no doubts are they very people I
work so hard to inform, educate and lead to an open mind. More directly, true believers frighten me. History is brimming with examples of
individuals who had no doubts about their beliefs and the violence, prejudice
and genocide their actions resulted in.
So my friends, join me in doubting everything, applying a
critical eye and exploring all the possibilities. Bring your doubts, embrace
them as valuable tools you will need along your spiritual path.
Somehow I
suspect the Goddesses and Gods have their doubts about us also.
1 comment:
I feel much in the same vein. It's a reason that I call myself an Agnostic Pagan. There are days that I'm sure that the God and Goddess are there. There are days when I'm sure that a myriad of Gods and Goddesses are there. There are days when I feel like a militant atheist. There are other days where it just doesn't matter and I revel in Nature, no matter how it came about. I feel like I waffle a little too much, but it allows me to see things from angles that I wouldn't necessarily have the ability to see from otherwise.
Thank you for the post. It certainly makes me think.
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