Doubt, it’s a strong word that in our deepest heart we all deal with. Intermittently I doubt self, divinity, my actions, my intent and those around me. It is quite a revelation when some one who so loudly proclaims their beliefs to the world professes such a thing.
For a very long time I resisted my doubts, suspecting that they pointed to something about myself that was a weakness. In my overconfidence I harbored a dark corner of doubt that nagged at me, ever questioning my fundamental character.
My relationship with divinity eventually morphed how I viewed these feelings and thoughts. With time, I came to understand the strengths that were inherent in this aspect of my personality. My doubts lead me to question, explore and apply reason to my inner self, my relationships and divinity.
It is my doubts that have lead me to develop discernment, compassion for others and a relationship with the Goddess that provides great meaning in my life. Today I value doubt as indispensible to my activities in social justice, personal growth and spiritual development.
Those who claim to have no doubts are they very people I work so hard to inform, educate and lead to an open mind. More directly, true believers frighten me. History is brimming with examples of individuals who had no doubts about their beliefs and the violence, prejudice and genocide their actions resulted in.
So my friends, join me in doubting everything, applying a critical eye and exploring all the possibilities. Bring your doubts, embrace them as valuable tools you will need along your spiritual path.
Somehow I suspect the Goddesses and Gods have their doubts about us also.